june 1st.

The day has come. On June 1st, 2018, we got notified that we had fulfilled all of our requirements and we were officially "in the book" with our agency! This was such a surreal feeling for us. The past 6 months has been filled with paperwork, meetings, phone calls and deep thinking. Making books and profiles and writing letters, whew! It was fun to be busy and to think about where all of this was leading us. But now? Now we wait. 


We wait until a woman and her support system start researching adoption.

We wait until a woman chooses adoption for her child.

We wait until a woman wants to look for a potential family for her child.

We wait until someone finds us, whether it be via social media or our agency.

We wait to meet these incredible people and find out more about them and their unborn child.

We wait until a sweet expectant mother chooses us to be parents.

I shared with some people that a few weeks ago, we met a mother who waited only 19 days before her and her husband were chosen to adopt. Today is our 19th day. It's a long shot that this will happen quickly, but it's fun to think about. On the other hand, the other day, I met a woman who waited 5 years to be chosen, only to have a failed match and is now waiting again. Such heartache. I cannot imagine this scenario. Either way, Ryan and I both are convinced that there is a plan for us. Whether it be 19 days or 5 years, we know that a sweet baby will be ours one day. A baby who we will choose each and every single day to be the love of our lives. I'm surprisingly calm and patient. If you know me, you know I'm normally neither of those things. However, I have such a peaceful, calm feeling about this wait. I feel so blessed to be able to pursue this journey and I will wait as long as I need to, to become a momma. 

I want to share something I shared the day I sent in our final paperwork to the agency because it was truly from the heart. I want our tribe to know how special and amazing they are to us. Especially after this past weekend, where we had a fundraising garage sale - I am reminded of how blessed we are:

 To those that have been there every step of the way - I’m in awe of you. We’ve put you through the ringer. Every emotion, every sad phone call, every hopeless text message, every piece of exciting news, every mood swing, every time something is checked off the list...you were there. We will never ever forget the love and support we have felt through this process. Whether you like it or not, you read the books, researched on your own, read every single blog, and send us articles on adoption. You are our everything. We could never thank you enough.
To my incredible husband… There aren’t words to describe my thankfulness for you. You have gotten through every step of this journey with a smile on your face and are always the first to make sure that I keep smiling as well. You are the strongest and most courageous man I know. This journey has not only made us stronger as a couple but has truly helped me believe we will make it through absolutely anything. You are my love of a lifetime.

And now....back to waiting. 

XOXO